Life is what happens when you're busy making other plans.

It seems like every day something else happens and it can get rather irritating. For instance, I am doing my next doc on what it's like living with CP and how I'm coping with it. I started this endeavour a while ago and what was supposed to be a story on myself and going through a living hell when I was younger had to change due to a few non-cooperative people....my mother. She was fine with it at first and said "yes" quite easily but then decided no, she didn't want to do it anymore because she was worried about me painting her as "the villain" I couldn't believe it!

I was fighting with her over the phone AND at the bar at the Toronto airport waiting for Steve to arrive over this! How ridiculous is that? I thought, and most thought that being a parent, she would help me, her daughter, no matter how she felt. However, my mother being my mother, saw it just as a "school project" and nothing more. She didn't see how important it was for me to talk through this and put it together as a visual piece so I can deal with it and move on.
I have spent YEARS trying to put the past where it belongs but every once in a while it pops up and bites me hard and I crumble all over again.

So, after getting over that hurddle, Steve and I worked on it during our visit and I now have a clearer focus and I can see it in my head how it will turn out. Everything works out in the end I guess and if it doesn't than it's not the end.